The World According to Marfs

I woke today with not necessarily a black dog on my shoulder but definitely a shadow of said dog lingering on the side lines, waiting to pounce. 

I am waiting for something to happen that I am fairly convinced won’t, even though I tried my best. My self-analysis mode is in full swing as I go over it again and again and yet…I come up with a blank. I hate not knowing. 

I am feeling quite low today and it’s just a general lack of…something.

My mother told me on the phone the other day that I really should understand the concept of delayed gratification which made me really want to swear at her. You think I have waited long enough for the good stuff to kick in? You think there haven’t been many hours of waiting, sat in my room, living at home, working towards stuff and waiting for my life to feel like it resembled something more? The idea that I will have to wait longer just makes me feel so…impotent. Ugh. 

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9am

Hmm.

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Via Cat's positive lifestyle and passiom

10pm

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Via Doing It For Me.

12pm

Yesterday, I got some very sad news that my mum’s cousin had passed away quite suddenly. He was 75, although you would not have known it. He and his wife had been like a surrogate aunt and uncle to me and my brother whilst we were growing up. If anything had ever happened to my parents then they would have been given guardianship responsibilities. 

I feel like a part of my life has come to an end and I am trying not to think about it too much but sometimes the emotion gets to me as he was such a part of the fabric of my extended family that it seems so very, very odd that he won’t be around anymore, playing board games with us at Christmas, telling stories, imparting wisdom. There will be a definite void. 

Anyway, otherwise had a lovely weekend with J and some friends. Spent it in London where we pottered around Richmond and then went to Ham Polo Club on Sunday and drank champagne and watched some matches, whilst eating yummy food and making the most of the sunshine. 

Life is quite short, really. I am fairly sure it is speeding up and I know that in life you must go and grab opportunities, you must fight to make things happen, to shape your life to be the way you want it. I have always been quite reactive but I am feeling a new strength of mind to awaken a more proactive side of myself. 

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Via Doing It For Me.

12pm

I think I really need to take this to heart at the moment. Standing on the edge of a precipice, you may never feel ready to take that step and leap into the unknown but sometimes you just have to just shut your eyes, jump and hope for the best. 

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Via Look like Barbie, lift like Ken

7am

minxify:

Very clever

Well, who knows. 

I had moussaka for dinner. I need to do some washing up and possibly have an early night. 

Via Current Goal: Hit 130 pounds by 26th May

9pm

rocknrollgroupie:

me

This is basically my life. Even though I have pretty decent line in nonchalance. 

Via i want to be all that i am capable of becoming

1pm

gettingahealthybody:

^ preach

Via ONEDOZENREASONS.

8pm

potentialitea:

betype:

There are far by splendidandsound

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This is one of my favorite quotes and without a doubt the one piece of advice I constantly give myself from time to time. It’s always relevant.

Via on the road to beautiful

1pm

edgaralanfrog:

glencocoabutter:

son, your mother and i are very concerned

i never laughed at two cats harder before

This is just BRILLIANT

Via Health & Coffee

7pm

This. A million times. 

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Via ONEDOZENREASONS.

7pm

chainofaffection:

“Have you ever come across a homeless individual and felt totally uncomfortable?

You see them and you know they are in need, but you are not sure what to do. You know that handing them money is not the best thing. But, you also see that they clearly have some needs. Their lips are chapped. They are hungry. They are thirsty. They are asking for help.

How can you help?

Here is a simple idea - blessing bags.

This was such an easy project. We are now going to keep a few “Blessing Bags” in our car so that when we do happen to see someone on the streets who is homeless, we can hand them a Blessing Bag. I first learned of these bags from my friend, Julie. I am using the picture of her bags (see above) because the ones we took were taken in horrible lighting and turned out really grainy and hard to see what is inside of them.

If you’d like to make your own Blessing Bags, this is what you would need:

Gallon size Ziplock bags

items to go in the bags, such as:

chap stick

packages of tissues

toothbrush and toothpaste

comb

soap

trail mix

granola bars

crackers

pack of gum

band aids

mouthwash

coins (could be used to make a phone call, or purchase a food item)

hand wipes

you could also put in a warm pair of socks, and maybe a Starbucks gift card

Assemble all the items in the bags, and maybe throw in a note of encouragement. Seal the bags and stow in your car for a moment of providence.

This would be a great activity to do with some other families. Each family could bring one of the items going into the bags (ex: toothbrushes). Set up all the items around a table and walk around it with the ziplocks and fill the bags.”

http://kwavs.blogspot.com/2011/05/blessing-bags-how-to.html

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Via Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat

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